Concrete Island
I had some pretty crazy dreams last night...
The first one involved the current season of ABC's "The Bachelorette". Yes, I have actually been keeping up with it. When I finished "LOST" and realized that I needed something unproductive to do with my time, I turned to cheesy reality TV romance. Though strangely enough, I hadn't watched or thought about the show in over a week. Regardless, my dream involved Deanna and her four seemingly perfect suitors. Only in an unexpected twist, a new guy entered the show. He was overweight, covered in tattoos, and had hair longer than mine. Yet in the end, that's the guy she chose. Apparently, that's who she was happiest with. Even though she was surrounded by all those perfect guys, she chose the guy who seemed least likely of being a good fit. Maybe that's my lesson... though I don't exactly have lots of guys to choose from at the moment.
The next dream was even more random and waaay more complex. For whatever the reason, I was talking on the phone to Jack*. He told me he had a new girlfriend named Lisa. Throughout the conversation, I had a deep longing to see him. He told me to drive down to meet Lisa right at that exact moment, which caught me off guard. I agreed to and then he told me that he really missed me, and that I would always be his number 1 girl. I told him I was leaving right then, but I went home and took a shower first. When I got there, he hugged me and started walking with his arm around me in front of all his friends. His girlfriend was not around. He kissed me several times as we were walking into this big coliseum and it didn't seem wrong or like we needed to hide anything. When we sat down inside, he looked me in the eyes and told me that he wished we lived closer and that he would never find anyone better than me. It wasn't needy or clingy, though. Even though he was saying those things, he seemed perfectly content to just be with his friends. The entire time, I felt so comfortable. I felt so happy.
All of a sudden, the coliseum that we were in had a huge body of water in the middle of it, surrounded by stadium seating. It wasn't as large as a football stadium, though... more like a fashion show. On one side, there were bands playing. In the middle of the water, there was a small concrete island. A brunette was sitting on it and tuning an electric guitar. It soon became her turn to play, so she swam on stage, but left her guitar there. Ashley was suddenly there and the two of us decided to swim over to the island. I think it was more of her idea. We tried plugging in the guitar, but were unsuccessful. A girl sitting in the crowd right next to the island was making us feel stupid. All attention quickly turned on us and we decided to swim back. The entire building was silent as I was swimming back and the mean girl shouted that I left my keys on the concrete island. Ashley was already completely dry and sitting at a table by herself. The mean girl threw my keys high into the air and they barely made it to Ashley. I was furious, because the keys could have easily fallen into the water and sunk to the bottom. I was not able to get my head under water because of my contacts and I felt short of breath, so I started yelling at the mean girl. In mid rant, Ashley threw my keys into the water and started laughing as if it was a joke. I just stared back at her in shock. I felt so betrayed, even though I knew she meant it as a joke. Even looking back on this part of the dream, I feel a lot of anxiety. The entire time, I felt alone.
After what seems like an eternity, I am back walking through a tunnel with Jack and his friends. We are much more distant than we were earlier. We approach a dark haired girl who seems unattractive until we get closer. This girl is his girlfriend, Lisa. We don't really talk much. In fact, she and Jack don't talk much, either. She seems distant from everyone. We walk out into the sunlight and it's just me and Jack, walking to my car (which totally wasn't my car). He is very stand offish. He tells me that we will never end up together, even though he loves me, and that we can't even be friends. He hugs me and walks away. I sit for awhile and feel a deep sadness. Not because we won't end up together, but because I would never see him again. That last part of the dream left me feeling empty.
I honestly don't want to analyze that one. It seems a little intense, especially since the main characters are people I have deep and complicated relationships with. I do plan on blogging my dreams on a regular basis, though. I am constantly battling with my emotions and wondering how I actually feel about certain things. Maybe my dreams are a gateway into my soul.
*I'm using an alias for this particular person. I mean, he might find it creepy knowing that I had a strange dream that he was in. I probably would.
The first one involved the current season of ABC's "The Bachelorette". Yes, I have actually been keeping up with it. When I finished "LOST" and realized that I needed something unproductive to do with my time, I turned to cheesy reality TV romance. Though strangely enough, I hadn't watched or thought about the show in over a week. Regardless, my dream involved Deanna and her four seemingly perfect suitors. Only in an unexpected twist, a new guy entered the show. He was overweight, covered in tattoos, and had hair longer than mine. Yet in the end, that's the guy she chose. Apparently, that's who she was happiest with. Even though she was surrounded by all those perfect guys, she chose the guy who seemed least likely of being a good fit. Maybe that's my lesson... though I don't exactly have lots of guys to choose from at the moment.
The next dream was even more random and waaay more complex. For whatever the reason, I was talking on the phone to Jack*. He told me he had a new girlfriend named Lisa. Throughout the conversation, I had a deep longing to see him. He told me to drive down to meet Lisa right at that exact moment, which caught me off guard. I agreed to and then he told me that he really missed me, and that I would always be his number 1 girl. I told him I was leaving right then, but I went home and took a shower first. When I got there, he hugged me and started walking with his arm around me in front of all his friends. His girlfriend was not around. He kissed me several times as we were walking into this big coliseum and it didn't seem wrong or like we needed to hide anything. When we sat down inside, he looked me in the eyes and told me that he wished we lived closer and that he would never find anyone better than me. It wasn't needy or clingy, though. Even though he was saying those things, he seemed perfectly content to just be with his friends. The entire time, I felt so comfortable. I felt so happy.
All of a sudden, the coliseum that we were in had a huge body of water in the middle of it, surrounded by stadium seating. It wasn't as large as a football stadium, though... more like a fashion show. On one side, there were bands playing. In the middle of the water, there was a small concrete island. A brunette was sitting on it and tuning an electric guitar. It soon became her turn to play, so she swam on stage, but left her guitar there. Ashley was suddenly there and the two of us decided to swim over to the island. I think it was more of her idea. We tried plugging in the guitar, but were unsuccessful. A girl sitting in the crowd right next to the island was making us feel stupid. All attention quickly turned on us and we decided to swim back. The entire building was silent as I was swimming back and the mean girl shouted that I left my keys on the concrete island. Ashley was already completely dry and sitting at a table by herself. The mean girl threw my keys high into the air and they barely made it to Ashley. I was furious, because the keys could have easily fallen into the water and sunk to the bottom. I was not able to get my head under water because of my contacts and I felt short of breath, so I started yelling at the mean girl. In mid rant, Ashley threw my keys into the water and started laughing as if it was a joke. I just stared back at her in shock. I felt so betrayed, even though I knew she meant it as a joke. Even looking back on this part of the dream, I feel a lot of anxiety. The entire time, I felt alone.
After what seems like an eternity, I am back walking through a tunnel with Jack and his friends. We are much more distant than we were earlier. We approach a dark haired girl who seems unattractive until we get closer. This girl is his girlfriend, Lisa. We don't really talk much. In fact, she and Jack don't talk much, either. She seems distant from everyone. We walk out into the sunlight and it's just me and Jack, walking to my car (which totally wasn't my car). He is very stand offish. He tells me that we will never end up together, even though he loves me, and that we can't even be friends. He hugs me and walks away. I sit for awhile and feel a deep sadness. Not because we won't end up together, but because I would never see him again. That last part of the dream left me feeling empty.
I honestly don't want to analyze that one. It seems a little intense, especially since the main characters are people I have deep and complicated relationships with. I do plan on blogging my dreams on a regular basis, though. I am constantly battling with my emotions and wondering how I actually feel about certain things. Maybe my dreams are a gateway into my soul.
*I'm using an alias for this particular person. I mean, he might find it creepy knowing that I had a strange dream that he was in. I probably would.
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